Sunday, May 11, 2008
- 10:35 am
1st week of school has came to a close and things seem good so far. Things which happened in the lab has been good but most of the progress has to be contributed to luck. 1st, it was on occlusion. You pour the cast and hope there would be too much bubble. Technique does count but I rather contribute the "very good" cast to luck. 2nd, caught up with my group of tooth coloured restoration. I guess technique counts more here but mine is still due mostly to lady luck shining on me. Having started the mould 1 lesson slower than most people but still finding myself on par with them well is very fortunate. Apart from forsaking a break on Friday to rush through my TCR, I was lucky as my mould didn't require any major modification. Modification can take a lot of your time and e.g sinking of teeth will require re-moulding which is very time consuming and frustrating.
Taking a step back, I find myself not so vulnerable to my personal struggle - struggling to identify yourself. Chill, relax, enjoy because the big D is really not everything. Life beyond the big D is too beautiful. The outdoor, which I fell deeply in love during the april hols. Finding my feet in other industry as a fall back stone.
I guess it has slight resemblance to becoming a teenager again. Is it really that important to be cool, who are you REALLY? Once you grow out of the phase, the cool kids may fade in college and being cool is really not that important. Living in past glory of being the cool kids is all that remained. You don't go out and find identity, it finds you and stick to you regardless you like it or not. You are only try and attract different identity, but which of them eventually sticks to you is well, beyond your control. So stop controlling, let go and enjoy because its a phase which once you outgrow it will be lost. Stop controlling because this is not a phase you need to control.
KeL|eNeRD
